Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Who makes these rules?

So yesterday I realized that everything around me is being or has been governed by someone else's ideas. For instance, there are (and I get) magazines that tell me how to be healthy and that I should be healthy in order to live a better life. There are classes and programs that tell you how to manage your money and savings for your own future. Society dictates that we are supposed to go to school, graduate, start careers and be productive citizens of our community. Well, what if I want to be an unhealthy, uneducated piece of crap?

I suppose my class last night telling me that I need to (or should have already) start a 401k and a Roth IRA. Then I read Cosmo and Women's Health in bed last night. I got a little overwhelmed because those magazines and my class made me feel like I was already behind and I feel like there is no way that I can do it all. I really don't know how to get it all done and do it the right way.

I guess this is the fun part of getting older. There are a million things to do and you feel like you can't do any of them. =\ Not a good feeling.

At least I got a good workout in today. =]

Friday, June 25, 2010

Did I fast forward somewhere along the way?

OK when exactly did I grow up so quickly? It seems like when everyone else aged a year on their birthdays I aged two. At 17 I knew I wanted to get married and start a family. I knew college was a step to cross over. I know that I will start my career by 2011. These are not what-ifs for me. They are absolutes, things that WILL happen and things that I control. So if these seem like such logical steps to me, why don't they seem that way to everyone else?

Working in the restaurant industry is one of the best and worst things I have ever done. Worst because it is unnerving at times, you work with people who more than likely don't share the same goals as you and you see a lot go on that you might not have. The unnerving thing was assumed prior to getting hired. I know that restaurants are fast paced and keeping up would be hard at times and exhausting to say the least. It's the other two that are really beginning to bother me. A lot of people get serving jobs because they have nothing else to do. Which is fine, school is not for everyone. However, if you don't have a clear picture of your future it seems to me that you would excel at whatever job you DID have in order to guarantee at least a stable job. This is not the case. A few people I work with are always on a high of some sort, they have children and put the drugs over them. It is sickening and getting worse by the day. I don't understand. If you KNOW that you have responsibilities, then take care of them. No one is going to do all of this for you. You chose this life for yourself. Whether you did something right, did something wrong or chose to not do anything at all...you chose it.

My co-workers are not who I'm concerned about honestly. It's their children. As a parent you are supposed to want to do whatever you can to provide them with anything they'll ever need. Will you always do this? No. You will fail your children from time to time. As frustrating as that is, it is OK. And these people claim to work hard to give them everything. Yet at the same time they get on a high, perform worse (which makes them lose money) and often can't make it back to their own home at the end of the night. It's sickening and the truth is starting to come out.

The one good thing about serving is that it keeps me pushing through school so that I don't have to do it anymore. Similar to the concept of having a 16 year old babysit 3 kids at once....the ultimate birth control. I've done this for a brief moment and I've come away with improved customer service skills and the ability to work in a fast paced environment amongst other things. But the ultimate payoff has been encouragement to never want to do this again and to one day be able to look back and say "waiting tables got me through college." I guess i just don't understand how you can STRIVE to be a good server as your career goal. To me it's a copout.